Devious

Devious

-23 May 2007-

I believe, I know, I can
find a way to make this plan
work out for the both of us
you know what she wants
for me not to see you
even when it rips me apart
I know you need me
and I need you too
its not a physical thing
its emotional and connected
To the way we think and act
I told you from the start
She would try her hardest
to break us apart
well let her try
cause I’ve got only you
and in the night we’ll leave
and escape her miseries

Needs

Needs

-18 May 2007-

I need to decide
How I am going to live my life
All I need is five reasons to stay
And one good reason to go away
Can you come up with an answer?
Please this is all I’m asking for
I’m tired of struggling and trying to please
It will never work out
And I need to be free
I need to try it out, learn and fall
So let me go
Don’t keep me here forever
I need to decide: now or never

Given Attention

(once untitled) 

Given Attention

-14 May 2007-

I suffocate
Under the gaze of so many
I falter
When I hear my name
I sweat
When the attention is on me.
As much as I dream for it
I ache for it even less
My mind is in turmoil
And the dreams always come
Yet sleep becomes uneasy
When the time comes
The words are out there
I can feel them
Taste them
Smell them
Hear them
Swirling around me
In a miasma of meaning
That I can never do justice.