Poems: a love for me

sometimes i sit

and stare out my window

hoping for a love of my own.

streetlights head this way, shining on the night

as shadows slink back, away and out of sight...

how I really wish someone would hold me

and let me know everything's gonna be all right

you have to understand

I have many moods and swings

somedays i'm the queen of the world

others i'm the bitch of the moon

and you wanna get away from me too soon.

I'll push you away when i'm feeling to close

you need to see past that and tell me no

for if you love me enough to care

you'll see all that is really there

i need to face my fears of being alone

i've always kinda been out on the cold

never known warmth for too long

and so from time to time i must move on

i'm looknig for a love whose stable and sane

one who knows what she wants and won't play games

i don't care what you call youself

as long as you love women and thats no doubt.

i play innocent from time to time

it helps me understand these worlds of dykeminds

but im never really innocent... at least not at first

until you catch me looking up your shirt ;)

so here I am, this is me,

take me or leave me.

but be a real love

and im here waiting.

Boxes and Duck Tape

Boxes and Duck Tape

-20 March 2008-

I'm sad and thats an understatement
they grabbed their boxes and the duck tape
they packed up their lives and drove away
now I'm left here on the sidewalk in the cold
goddess love me, I've never felt so old.
she didn't look at me last time I went by
my sister hasn't been to school in days
or so I was told yesterday by her teacher
with tears in my eyes I'm crying as they're gone
I may never see them again and thats all right
Its all right, Its all right
I know I'll be fine, I'll be okay
I wrote you a letter, mom
telling you that I'm moving on
I thought of mailing it to you
but I dont know where that is now
I don't know where that is.
stuck in the world of mess
onto the pavement lies
my heart in my chest
Its still beating
barely breathing
I promise I'm not going too far
I'll find you someday no matter where you are
they grabbed their boxes and their duck tape
and packed up their home
somehow I've never been so cold
I'm sad and thats an understatement
they left me alone.. barely broken
now I'm on my own, with no mistakes yet.
will someone pick me up and help me out
I need a family of friends to help love myself
to be there when times are tough
I'm calling you out... where are you?
stand up and shout because I can't see you
I can't feel you, where are you now?
where are you now? answer me please....
answer me.