I Am

I Am

-17 May 2005-

I am empty…

mixed - up unsure, stuck
between all that is and isn't
my mind is lying in a ditch
I woke up this morning
with no soul
I woke up this morning
broken and alone
She took of me
all that I had to give
I love her more now
to betray me
would be the end
I'm not alone
just starved and hungry
for something I can not have
and so it pains me

I am haunted…

pale young innocent
none of these am I
what defines me
other than my color
or the way I feel on
the inside
I am tired
I don't sleep anymore
I watch the shadows dance
on my walls and windows
and they keep me awake
till the sun peeks through

I am decaying….

the life I knew before
is so far over gone
on my gravestone
will be the words
"she never knew"
because I don't know
what life is at all
most people spend
all of their lives
trying to figure out
what is life
while I decay
and fade away
I won't miss this life

I am barren…

All that I am
and all that I was
is gone away now
there is no more
sorrow
pain
envy
there is no more

I am empty.