Fade

Fade

-19 July 2006-

It made me feel
It made me numb
It made me think
It made me stop
It looked so beautiful
Silver-edged against my caramel skin
It could make it stop
It had the power to make me stop hurting
Did I really want it?
Did I really want to make this a dream?
I picked it up
And looked at it
Turning it over
It was so shiny
So beautiful
I pressed it against my wrist
It was so beautiful
I pressed harder
So beautiful
It didn’t break the skin
It wasn’t sharp enough
It wasn’t good enough
I wasn’t good enough
We weren’t good enough
Angry red marks cover my skin
Where it wouldn’t break
Where it wouldn’t let me rest in peace
They’re starting to fade
Distant memories
And I’m starting to miss them
Already...