this blade

I wish to take this blade
and slash away
all of my inadequacies
all of my self-hatred
all of my loathing
all of my imperfections
but my incompleteness
makes me unique

allow this solemn blade
to pierce this dense skin
allow this crimson lie
to drip ruby eyed gems
onto the stained porcelain
of what they call this reality

no one ever sees this as what it is
they say im insane, im unhealthy
they say its wrong, to mutilate
to break flawless skin
which has always been so flawed
so marred by my deep understanding
that what is truely isnt

so with this blade
i hope to purge all my sins
which i do not believe in
this false idea of God
who is feminine and truly Goddess

let them condemn me
I've found the answer
with this blade